BLACK

Poornima Laxmeshwar

i want to paint black –
all those memories with their roots
so firm in my mind’s garden
blossoming into colourless roses
i want to paint them black…
the days when my father’s friend
took optimal advantage
made me hold his crotch
until one day i puked out of disgust
then when i was just four
i want to paint them black…
the days when i went to market
or travelled alone to school
and someone’s hard hand felt me all over
tears just swelled to flow
then when i was just a girl
i want to paint them black…
the days when i was hit hard by you
and blood just stood still
making it hard to hide the bruises
then when i was just a lady
i want to paint them black…
now that age has consumed me like a cookie
all i long for is a quiet night sky
with starry sparkling memories with every abusive moment
that etched a scar in my heart
painted in black

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poornimaPoornima Laxmeshwar has authored a poetry collection named Anything but poetry. Her haiku and poems have appeared in several magazines and anthologies. She currently resides in the garden city of India, Bangalore.
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